Imagine going to sleep with bad news and waking up to even more bad news.
Well, that has been what my world has been like for the past three weeks. Every day I wake up finding something has gone wrong and by the time I sleep, there are more things that gone wrong. While they are not a matter of life and death issues, but they have a big impact nonetheless. It is draining to be in school while working and maintaining a relationship, but I have been proving it for the last 13 weeks that I can do it. I am not everybody. I have my own ambitions and ways to make it work.
But now I don’t know if I could continue on.
There’s just more added stress than what I have anticipated. While I know it is not my fault, I still feel responsible. I know this post is rather vague and if you are visiting my blog for the first time, you might be confused of what the hell I am talking about. Well, this blog is my way to expressing my thoughts. The posts are unedited and grammar is not my main focus.
So now here I am, 13 weeks past the first day of the Pre-MBA courses and about to start my MBA in 3 weeks. If anyone thinks my life has been so easy, well it is because I made it look easy for you. Those who are actually close to me would know that it is not as simple as it seems. I’m not complaining because I do not regret a single thing, but I just wish it is simpler.
I’m thankful though to have great friends and be in a supportive relationship. EP helps me cope. When I get my random mood drop, he would not leave me alone, he would not get mad at me. Instead, he stopped everything he’s doing and tried everything in his power to cheer me up. It feels great to be loved like that.