In his book, “Stumbling on Happiness“, Daniel Gilbert made a bold statement.. Human being is the only animal that thinks about the future. He goes in depth with the theory and the reasons why and how we think about the future. One of the examples he brought up is about a Harvard psychology professor who went to India in the late 1960s and returned to write a popular book called “Be Here Now“. The ex-professor argued that the key to happiness, fulfillment, and enlightenment, was to stop thinking so much about the future.
The last few days, I have been feeling a little scared thinking about the next few weeks.My mom is leaving back to Indonesia at the end of this week, two of my closest coworkers will be out of town for a huge event for a week, and who knows when K is finally leaving to Saskatchewan. He said end of March, but then changed it to mid March as his leg healing up faster than expected. Then shortly after, a bunch of the interns also have their contract ending. I am particularly sad to know D’s contract is ending because she’s been a huge support for me at work. Just having her around is enough for me to get by. She’s so valuable to the team and I couldn’t even imagine the team without her.
However, all these thinking about the future are wearing me down. I’m getting too bogged down with what might happen with all these changes and I am definitely not looking forward to feeling like I am left all alone. However, I am forcing myself to change that mindset so I can “be here now”. I know I should enjoy the present and celebrate my every second with them, instead of locking myself away. I know the situation is not perfect and it will never be. I just have to embrace it and cherish everything I have right now. Be here now, Steph. Focus on the present. See? You’re okay.